Currently Live at Piedmont Park By Dave Matthews Band see related

years

It has been literally years since I've used this thing!

but im starting up again for momma gabbie!

oh and its muh birfday!

Currently Listening Any Given Thursday By John Mayer love song for no one see related

i hear you call my name and its just like a ....

like a dream to me....

just like a dream you are not what you seem....

your voice will take me there...

ariana~

Currently Listening Workingman's Dead By Grateful Dead casey jones see related

you see...

the trouble with me

is the trouble with you

cause you got two good eyes

but you still dont see

come around the bend

you know its the end

fireman screams

and the engine just cleans...

i think i need me some cranberries and "merry" jane for the holiday seasons...

me and my tree (i forgot to turn off the tree lights so the tree doesnt look too shnazzy)

love fritz

Currently Listening The Very Best of Rod Stewart By Rod Stewart maggie may see related

smile even though your heart is aching

Smile
Though your heart is aching
Smile
Even though it's breaking
When there are clouds
In the sky,
You'll get by
If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile
And maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun
Come shining through
For you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear
May be ever so near
That's the time
You must keep on trying
Smile
What's the use of crying?
You'll find that life
Is still worth-while
If you just smile
Smile

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear
May be ever so near
That's the time
You must keep on trying
Smile,
What's the use of crying?
You'll find that life
Is still worth-while
If you just smile
Keep on smiling
Oh yeah
Smile
Never, never, never stop smile
Smile

this song always makes me feel a little better.

and i do neeed some cheering up after that last post.

i am more sad after the post than i was before i made it.

becasue i thought that those things i said would help.

but they didnt.

i got the one thing in return that i wanted least in life.

and that is i am

alone.

ariana

Currently Listening Across the Universe By Fiona Apple across the universe see related

nothings going to change my world

i have been told recenty that i am a compulsive liar,

i am here to admit that i probably am.

i have had a problem since i was little,i thought it had gotten better

but i suppose i was wrong,for the most part.

i just wanted to be liked thats it,i have no idea what the hell was going through my mind

for the past 8 years.

i am sorry if you were one that i have lied to,i can assure it was not intentional

which makes it even worse,believe that if you can find a way to.

and try to find truth in the things i have said and can also assure you they were not all lies.

for instance i can assure you that if i ever said i loved you

that it was definatly the truth, that is one thing i have a hard time saying,and when i do it is surely mean it.

i can not remember everything i have ever lied about,

like i said it has been a definate problem since i was little,but i am sorry and if there is something you would feel inclined to call me out on i would be willing to give you answers

and if you would rather not be friends with me i can also understand as much as i would hate that

most of you have already made that decision anyway long before this entry

which i also am rather depressed about.

there is nothing i can do to change it just wish that it will get better.

the following people i would like to appoligize to the most are:

shannon and jace

i am sorry for lying to both of you at one point or the other

i wanted so much to be your best friend,it was a relationship i did not take lightly and still dont

i had feeling for the both of you stronger than anyone else before other than my very best friend ever

who is the reason all of this started,i believe that if she were here today i would be a much different person.

but there is no going back only going forward,

so i would like to appoligze to you both.

along with everyone else who has ever been a victim of a lie i have told,

but mostly you two.

i hope that you both read this its the only way i could get it across to you.

and i hope you believe i am sorry.

and i am due for some change and i would like to tell you that that change is definatly present in my life,

whether you choose to believe this or not its up to you.

because belief is what i am fighting for.

love,ariana